2013年7月29日星期一

这城市不再冷

我是要死了,凌晨3点钟,我仍还未躺上床。
莫名其妙地在网络游荡,让我很幸运地找到了这个冷漠城市的一道曙光。
从Ms Tang那边,认识到了艺术的高标准,我是没有那种领悟能力去理解其中的云云,但那的确很夺目,很引人进入一种紧张的思绪,虽然不懂,但是感觉到了一些什么,还没来得及抓着,便似光速般飞逝了。


然后认识到了Anna Chong, 庄启馨。
 
原来马来西亚还没有落寞,至少曾经的我觉得无法在这么冷漠的城市里存活,我不想要苟且偷生的活着,我不想每天醒着只为了工作,还是最终的目标,赚更多的钱。金钱很重要,但最近我的灵魂好象已在猛烈地燃烧着所剩无几的生命,我知道再这样下去,我会是这城市里另一个僵尸。
Anna的声音有一种苍凉,一种很冷,却可以很温暖的感动。
不过我也不过听了两首歌,已经有想哭的冲动。感恩,我还能够哭泣。
王蓝茵也好久不见了,通过Anna那里,知道她们有一个巡演,叫做【Just Play! 簡單玩 。玩簡單】音樂巡演。一起玩的,还有十一号月台,我听了好几首歌,也是让我很感动很感动的,原来这个城市里还有牵动我脉搏的东西。


自从进入大学过后,很隐藏自己的需要,因为我不应该不需要。更多的是,我不敢要,这样的需要不太符合主流意识,别人不会因此而觉得你很有才气,反之会认为你在瞎掰。
另外,我很羡慕一位朋友,他到nepal背包流浪去了,去大概一个月。我在想,什么时候会到我流浪去?大概,对于正步入社会的我来说,灵魂的重量不应该是一个考量,钱包的重量比较符合经济效益。

对于一些事情,能力范围能及的话,不要等待,做了才来想接下来的问题。因为时间不会等待,身份不会重来。
各位,晚安。(很高兴我找了一些灵魂的火花。)

2013年7月28日星期日

3 days to 1 month

First of all, thanks for all the friends that are always concerned about me living in KL, I can't say I really fine as usual, probably needed more time to adapt to this huge economic hub (or in another meaning, cold+scary city). I thought I only need a little bit of time to fit into the KL life, but in fact the duration seems to slightly prolong a bit ( just a bit, yup, be positive!!).

let me story what had happened since I moved to KL.

I started my KL life as a valueless intern at Maxis Berhad, I have been posting under the wing of HR and Talent Management (actually originally I am interning under talent management only, Talent office then merged with HR, Maxis really been through alot this year, CEO resigned, Promised next-to-be CEO ditched us and flied back to Netherland or Australia, Joint COO disappeared with silly excuse, a lot of senior managers turnovered, in short CRISIS!). To be frank, I should feel blessed with seems-to-be extra workloads, in real I don't even feel busy since I get into Maxis! everyday I am dealing with some monotonous documenting task, which initially I really have no idea why I am doing this, but later on after a short lunch with an experienced HR colleague, hehehehehe, now I know why, but not going to disclose it now, it is P&C!(hahahahah, HR people's privilege, everything is P&C)

I know so well that my low job satisfaction is due to the light workload and cold environment in Maxis! I must admit that I am a kind of people that required of stressful working pressure, and normal environment. I am easily shaped by the environment, if the environment is lazy, I might project myself like the casual me. I know when life gives you lemon, you need to make it lemonade. But I really too immersed in my shell lately, I covered myself with too much of protection, which somehow indirectly giving people a hint to not come close to me, but I just don't know the way to live in this monstrous, strange, new place, I am lost, thoroughly!

I planned a lot of things to do in the coming month, attend course at coursera, complete the required e-learning from Maxis, start doing my internship report, and buy the summarised MBA books to train up my business mindset!!

Beside of my internship life, everything is fine. I think.

it is okay to have a bad start, but I believe in myself, I will do my best to alter this situation.
Tomorrow will be a better day, as long as you really put in effort to change it!

p.s Emm..I don't know whether you are still reading my blog, but I really hope we can friend again, let the past be in the past, okay?